my mom used to make this joke, that I’m sure she stole from some crappy weatherman, that “there will be no weather today, because the definition of weather is the change in climate and conditions, and today is going to be exactly the same as yesterday.”
well, there’s no weather in my mind; nothing has changed. I’ve talked about my state with a few people and no one has had any really good insights… well, some people have been sort of understanding, but no one has surprised me and known me as well as I know me… or really shocked me and proven to know me better than I know me. I guess I haven’t gotten close enough to anyone for them to know my mind. I know it was intentional, but now I wonder if it really was the best idea.
but the weather report is calling for some high pressure fronts to come out into the open and then eventually move out to sea. These fronts might be stubborn and try to stick around, causing some big storms and possible flooding conditions.
unfotunately, in this analogy, the weather will all happen on the outside, but there’s no telling what effect it will really have on the mind inside. My mom also used to talk about a comic book character named Joe Bfstplk who always had a dark rainy cloud over his head, hopefully that’s not how I’ll end up.
woot
maybe something new is growing through cracks in the pavement.
great melacholy can lead to new awareness
in my experience, the melacholy gets really ugly for a while, so ugly, in fact, your body may physically suffer
however
nothing lasts forever; through unconscious desire or want for an answer, you may wake one day with new direction
Phsycological Risk ( sorry about your fortune cookie, I’ll watch where I’m going next time )
haven’t caught any new growth, yet. As I said in my last entry, I’m sort of stuck in place where I can’t focus on anything. So, I don’t really feel like I can start anything new, or even do the things I’m doing now, as well as I’d like to… some things are changing that will hopefully relieve some pressure and make it easier to either get back to a good mindset or, at the very least, make living with this one easier.
I don’t know if you know this, but whenever you come home and you are in a happy mood, it instantly makes me feel 3,000 times better. I like to absorb your positivity through osmosis.
And I never trust the weather, but I heard there were clear skies ahead….at least in the Blackstone Valley that is…
still in the calm before the storm, but it’s starting to smell like rain.