numb fear

I commonly have 12 hour days of work. Between the few departments of my various employers, I occasionally end up with a completely full day. Today is one of those days, as is tomorrow and the next day. Usually, this is no problem for me. Some of the work is easy and some requires some heavy thought; Usually a day like today is half and half and there’s a short break in between where I can collect myself and get some food in me. Today, however, I picked up my cell phone to check my messages during my break and got two very disturbing messages. The first was from my brother, asking me to help him confirm which hospital Dad was in, as he was flying up ASAP and there was some confusion. The second was from my mom, explaining that Dad had fallen yesterday and was taken by ambulance to the hospital… he had survived the night, but was in ICU and in a coma.

Now I’m finishing off the last hour of my 12 hour day and dreading what happens next. The next few hours, the next few days… just afraid and numb.