I know, it’s fall. I really did start a lot of cleaning in the spring: cleaned out old roommates who weren’t paying me, cleaned out positions at work that weren’t fulfilling, cleaned out my head… might’ve scrubbed a little too hard on that one. Then, in the summer, I finished some of those cleaning jobs and tried to do a little recovery from cleaning out my head too hard, which included cleaning out some of the stress-inducing things I was doing, like the bands. I cleaned myself out of the living room and into a bedroom, from which I had to clean out all of the remnants of the roommate who was in there before me. This fall, I’ve started a huge project cleaning up all the stuff my Dad left behind… from two tons of financial paperwork to garages/barns full of furniture and assorted crap from house renovations and auction/yard sale binges. I sifted through the ashes of the previous version of this website and built a whole new one. Over the last couple days, I took on the daunting task of cleaning out my car. I got all the trash out on Saturday afternoon. I brought all the clean laundry up to my room on Saturday night. I completely cleaned and vacuumed the floors on Sunday… I still need to figure out what to do with all the various pens, markers, wires and such and maybe organize the armrest compartment and the tool compartment in the back. Here at the house, I’ve still got to finish the closet in the living room and the outside hallway. The landlord would kill me if he saw the hallway the way it is; I should probably get started on that now.
Monthly Archive for October, 2005
All the change from the floor of my car, which i just vacuumed. This car wash place is pretty hoppin’ today.
More issues on the server … I knew if I posted the same visit my website cause it’s better than all these other sites for blogging purposes message to livejournal, I was asking for trouble. I posted it to myspace and this site went down for almost four days… now the site is up, but slow, and the RSS feeds aren’t working and the photo galleries aren’t working and who knows what else isn’t working. Will this even post? I dunno.
We turned the heat on here at home; It’s nice – not looking forward to the bill, though (I don’t know why I still have all these $$ amounts written on the blackboard. I’ve never gotten any money from past roommates when they move out, with the exception of Jacqui – I’m teasing myself with constant reminders of money I’ll probably never see again). We also got some heat turned on at the Teen Center. I only stuck around and hung out in the heat there for a couple hours… but at least I don’t have to pack an extra sweatshirt and gloves for the next time I’m working.
Highlighted parts of my resumé to give to HR at the Y about that computer administrator position. Haven’t fully decided if it’s what I want to do, but no other offers for more hours have appeared. So, I guess I should do that before I go looking for other hours elsewhere. I really don’t want to have to get some crappy retail job in Woonsocket… not just cause retail sucks, but because then I’d have to file my taxes in two states again. What a pain that was… So, I’ll write a cover letter and give it to them next week.
I haven’t done a budget out on paper, but I think I actually make close to enough to live on without supplementing my hours. It would be a very boring life, though, and one of these feelings that I’m trying to cope with that I haven’t really had to deal with in the past few years is loneliness, or a need for companionship. Unfortunately, all my other residual feelings in regards to almost all my current friends leads me to not want to hang out with them. That’s why I’ve been sort of excited about hearing from some old friends that I haven’t seen in years… it’s almost like starting over fresh, which is what I’ve felt like doing emotionally, but not really wanted to do.
I like the teen center. I really do. It’s a great job and there are some great kids here… but we have got to fix this no-heat situation. My fingers are numb, my hands are chilly. I have a hooded sweatshirt on and a fleece vest over that and a knit cap on. I am cold. I should not be cold. I am rarely cold. This is just silly. What’s really amazing is that it’s hardly been over 60° but there’s been a slew of kids hanging out here all day. Do they not have heat at home? This place is cool, but cool enough to brave hypothermia? I dunno. When I was their age, did I hang out at places like this even if they had no heat? Not that I remember… I think I had a rehearsal after school everyday. I did trudge through snow to go to our favorite pizza place before said rehearsals though. I guess that’s not any less insane. I’m pretty sure there was snow on the ground the day we were trudging across the field in our little group of 4 and a larger group of suburban homies who we called the chicken-down posse (due to their fluffy started jackets) came up behind us and threatened us with very real looking guns that turned out to be starter pistols. That sucked. It was kinda scary… but our little group could get away with just about anything after that. I think the school was afraid of a lawsuit. Good times.
Downtime sucks. I’ve been at this web design stuff for a long time now, and I’ve got myself boxed into a host that I don’t trust… it would be ridiculously more expensive for me to move any of my sites anywhere else, so I deal with the downtime. A weekend here, a month or two there. A few years ago, I would’ve been irate… furious, even. I would’ve demanded money back or something. I used to threaten legal action! I still do that with some corporations, because they won’t do anything unless you do. Verizon, for example, wasn’t going to budge on paying me back for the text messages I had been paying for, even though I had asked to be put on a text plan, and not notified when that request didn’t go through… I mentioned court and/or class action suit and I got credited all but $35 of what I’d overpaid. Anyway, back on topic, I think this downtime really saddened me because I’m becoming so attached to this new version of the site. I’ve always been one to just write exactly what I was thinking and/or feeling right onto my website. Usually way too much information… blogging was made for me. If I were more ambitious, I might’ve invented it.
Out in the real world, work has picked up some this week. Had a solid week of team-building and a lot of teen center/teen night hours. Looks like tomorrow morning’s stuff will be canceled due to rain, but that shouldn’t hurt the paycheck too bad. The teen night was very easy to help out with, and from what I’ve heard and experienced at other branches, the dances are pretty easy, too… sometimes downright boring to work. I’m hoping to get more of those kind of hours as the weather gets colder. Alternately, I could put in my resumé for the Computer Administrator position that’s being advertised at the Y, I’m more than qualified for it, and as long as I could convince them of that, the only thing I’d have to worry about would be my ability to focus on that kind of job again. Even when I was fully focused on team-building back in the spring, I shuddered at the thought of going back into tech. It might be a really bad idea, but if it looks like I’m not getting any hours elsewhere, I might have nothing to lose by going for it.
I keep getting eMails from old friends and ex-lovers and random acquaintances from days of old… I don’t know if someone has started some sort of secret support john campaign or if my big update was an unconscious screaming cry for help. I’m really enjoying all the correspondence and catching up with people I haven’t seen in years and rebuilding old friendships that were a lot of fun. Now I just have to free up the time and finances to go visit all these people.
Oh, and I sent mom the link to the carpet picture, so now she might be reading all my blogs. Hi, Mom. It’s not gonna change the way I write or what I write here… though there is a plug-in called “does your mother know?” that would block certain content from blocks of IP addresses…. just kidding, mom, there’s no content to hide from you.
Testing photo size… Since internet explorer, the inferior browser that it is, doesn’t seem to resize my pics and completely breaks the page formatting… I’m trying a lower resolution.
The color of the living room i grew up in changes… at least the color of the carpet… right before my eyes:
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