The topic of feeling “old” or “out of place” or both has come up a lot lately with a handful of my friends. My thoughts on these topics have been about the same, regardless of the situation, and quite contrary to the way my friends are feeling. I don’t feel any certain age; the environment and the average age of the people there doesn’t affect the way I feel when I’m there. The other night, my friends were weirded out being at a place they used to hang out and being surrounded by people who were the age they were when they used to hang out there. I’m pretty sure I was one of the oldest people there when I first started going there, but I saw some people who were about the age I was when I started going there, as well. I didn’t feel any such weirdness, though, and don’t think I ever have, even in the opposite sort of situation, surrounded by older people, which I usually was, when playing in the last couple of bands.
I’ve been thinking about others and their feelings and issues much more than usual lately. I’ve noticed it, I think, because I’ve been so inwardly focused for the past few months and it’s just different to be thinking about others. I also think I’m doing it way more than I have in the past few years. I find it hard to understand a lot of my friends feelings and viewpoints, but I’m giving it my best effort… cause I know my feelings and viewpoints are just as hard to understand.
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